Sunday, January 30, 2011

Small Victories

An old OU friend of mine recently wrote a blog post on her site about how nothing major had really happened in her life during the previous week, but how it is always important to recognize the small things in life and to celebrate those small victories that happen every day. Otherwise the small things can start to get you down.

I can relate. I feel as if I have quickly slipped back into the daily routine of life here in Madrid and find myself thinking about how I have not made any major accomplishments in the last week. It's really an incredible phenomenon that one can live in a foreign country and still feel as if things are mundane.

So it's time to celebrate my small victories and appreciate the little things that have happened in my life lately. Let's do it!
  • Body Factory Gym received a new member last Tuesday when I finally decided to do something good for myself and signed up for a gym membership. I've found that I have really become pretty lazy when it comes to doing things for myself, so I finally jumped on the gym bandwagon. (and I feel like I should note that a lot of the motivation for this also came from peer pressure from my co-workers) And I've actually already worked out several times. So yay me.
  • I FINALLY booked some trips for myself to get out of Madrid for awhile. I'm going to Valencia next weekend and then Amsterdam at the end of the month. One of my goals for the time I have left has been to do more traveling because I know after leaving in the summer I probably won't be back for a while. Valencia is always fantastic because I have some really great friends who live there and the Netherlands is a place I haven't been to before. So it looks like I've got some pretty cool places to look forward to!
  • Speaking of the two previous bullet points, I made the decision that the money I make while over here doesn't do me a whole lot of good just sitting in the bank. So even if cool things (like the gym or a plane ticket) cost a little extra money, it's all worth it in the end. It's just money, right?
  • I downloaded two new books (one is a historical thriller that supposedly has received high marks on amazon and the other is a Salmon Rushdie novel, and he is an author who I have recently become obsessed with) and have been reading away once again. Seriously, the Kindle is pretty much the best 150 bucks I've ever spent.
  • I made some new Spanish friends in the past few days, and for some reason that always makes me feel kind of accomplished. Like my Spanish is good enough that actual Spanish people like to talk to me in their native language. Or maybe it's just that I'm the foreign guy who sounds funny when he speaks. Either way, I've got new friends.
  • I re-connected with some old friends who I haven't talked to in a while and that always makes me feel good, too. I always fear that one of the biggest sacrifices I've made in my years over here in Spain has been my friendships from back home. It's really tough to maintain close friendships when you're an ocean apart. But I'm working on it and this week I did a pretty good job, I think.
  • I downloaded some new music, which seems awfully insignificant, but trust me. With my hour and a half commute every day, good new music can be a life saver.
So, as you can see, nothing major in the life of Jordan these days. But some decisions were made, steps taken to further myself, and some big things planned. Individually, everything would seem awfully minor. But together it makes me realize that my life is pretty dang good.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

A Lesson in Spanish Culture...and Marketing


Disclaimer: This is not being posted out of perversion. It is being posted to prove a point. So before you judge me, watch the whole commercial and read what I have to say. And then judge away.

As a student in Oklahoma, I studied international business and marketing. With that in mind, the way the Spanish culture expresses itself, both in real life and in the world of advertising, is absolutely FASCINATING to me. Seriously.

Exhibit A: The above advertisement.

First, let's analyze the ad itself. For a little background info, this is an ad that is shown on prime time television on all the major television networks in Spain, so it's not just on "special" networks for men. From an American standpoint, my first thoughts were that it was for condoms or something equally sex-related. There is so much gratuitous skin and less-than-subtle sexual context that I really couldn't fathom what else it could be advertising. (And be honest, if you're an American, you thought the same thing.)

And then BAM! IKEA!

What?

I think it can definitely be said that an ad like this would just never fly in the much more conservative (comparatively) American culture. We're just not that comfortable with our bodies and public displays of......well, anything, really. It just wouldn't work. (I mean for the general public. I'm sure there are some demographics out there that would love it.) And plus, I just don't think we can connect sex and furniture superstores. The American mind just doesn't work like that, I'm afraid.

Now, the Spaniards, on the other hand....I mean, it is a long-running commercial in Spain. Guess that kinda speaks for itself.

First of all, Spaniards don't see gratuitous skin as anything major. Take a trip to any beach in the country and check out all the topless women and men in Speedos and it's something that is painfully (and I mean that literally) obvious. And the nudity is no big deal to everyone around, despite the fact that you want to poke your own eyes out.

Also, public displays of affection are extremely commonplace here. Take a trip to any park, theater, supermarket, metro station, school, workplace, etc., etc., etc. and you'll get an eyeful.

So as long as this ad doesn't show the actual sex act (which it comes awfully close by an American standard) then it is A-OK. And what's more, the Spaniards can get past all the skin and sex and actually make the connection between what's happening in the ad and the joy of buying and having great, impossible-to-put-together furniture. And that is FASCINATING.

Right? You all agree with me, right?

BAM, you just got a free lesson in international marketing.

And that'll be enough nerd time for tonight.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Oh, Hey There 2011

So now that all of those boring old 2010 updates are out of the way (ancient history, really), I can finally start moving on into the new year.

As I said before, I really strongly believe that 2011 is going to be a hell of a year. I really have no concrete idea on what is in store for me, but I do know this: it will. be. AWESOME.

So far, the year has treated me pretty well. First and foremost, about a week in and it got me out of Oklahoma! Doesn't get any better than that, am I right?

Oh, just kidding, of course. It was sad to leave home after a really great couple of weeks.

But getting back to Spain is always pretty fantastic as well. After living in Madrid for about a year and a half, it feels as much like home as anywhere else. So it was nice to get back to the familiar sights and sounds (and smells.....not quite as welcome) of my vida madrileña.

This time around, I seemed to have a lot more problems with adjusting to the jet lag. Sometimes it works out for me, sometimes it doesn't. But my first week back at school was kind of hellish because I didn't sleep well at night and therefore was exhausted during the day. Which meant that I naturally took out my anger and frustration on my 6 and 7 year olds. Because there's nothing like the tears of a child to really brighten my day.

Oh, just kidding again. But I probably was a bit crabby during the week, to be perfectly honest.

So the first weekend, what did I do to try and get myself back on schedule? I went out on Friday AND Saturday night and stayed out until 7 and 8 in the morning. Which I suppose is pretty much on Spanish time.

Friday night I spent the evening with some coworkers, Marcus and Callie, and we had a very unexpected and eventful night. Started out having a drink after work, then proceeded to Callie's place to have some wine and relax, then moved out into the city where we managed to keep ourselves occupied all night long.

Saturday night was spent with my friend Robin, who cooked yet another amazing meal (for proof of her food's amazingness, refer to my Thanksgiving post) and then we also enjoyed ourselves out on the town.

But as fun as the Madrid nightlife can be, once you're past the age of 18 it can be a bit hard on your body. So what happened? Oh yes, this week I got pretty terribly sick. What started as a cough became a wheeze became a full-fledged hacking chest cold.

I took Friday off because I could barely talk and spent all that day plus the next in bed. Finally on Sunday I started to feel normal again and was ready to get out of the house. Luckily, Lupe was also feeling some cabin fever, so we met and went to watch this movie:

English translation: "Even The Rain." Apparently it's up for some awards and it was pretty good. I don't know if I would pay 8€ to watch it again, but still not too bad. And it's always a treat when I watch movies in Spanish and realize that I fully understand what is going on.

Later on we went to a park in northern Madrid called "Parque del Capricho." Despite the freezing cold (great for my lungs, I'm sure) it was a really beautiful day, so I snapped a few pictures.

I love this one because there is such a contrast between the green grass and the blue sky. There really wasn't a cloud in the sky that day and it made the cold more bearable.

And here is shot of me and the beautiful Guadalupe. You can't really see me at all, but that's probably for the best. I still wasn't quite at 100% and wasn't looking my best.

Another beautiful shot of the park. And as proof of the level of coldness, note how the stream is frozen. According to the other Americans I work with (Marcus and Tom from Nebraska and Callie from Wisconsin) this weather isn't even remotely cold. But all I know is that this Oklahoman thinks it's FREEZING. Northerners. What do they know anyway?

Apparently the Spanish agree with me, though. As evidence, I present to you:

One of the many, many, many women who never leave the house without their luxurious fur coat. Even if they're in tennis shoes and going to eat at Burger King. Lupe and I actually laughed at this and it's such a weird Spain phenomenon. Spanish women love their fur coats at all times, even when it's not all that cold.

So anyway, 2011 has been treating me pretty well so far. And I'm always excited to see what else it has in store.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Update #3 - Christmas Across the Globe

And now....for the third installment of updates from waaaaay back in 2010.

Ah, Christmas. A time of perpetual happiness and joy. A time of giving and receiving. A time of goodness and laughter. A time of vacations from work.

Which of the above do you think I was most looking forward to? Cause let's get real for a second here....a teacher's life is neither glamorous nor rich (in the monetary sense). But the vacations make it all worth it, especially the two weeks off for the Christmas season.

But no, in all honesty, the Christmas season is my favorite time of the year. Everything from the Christmas lights and decorations to the hustle and bustle of the shopping crowds. It's really a great time.

As the countdown began to the big day, I was still in Spain because school continued until December 23rd. Which was fine even considering the fact that I would be cutting it close to get home in time for Christmas (cue Bing Crosby's "I'll be home for Christmas").

The last week of school was actually really fun. Instead of giving real classes, I mostly just talked about Christmas with all the kiddos, painted pictures, played games, sang carols, and just had a good time. And even though we teachers told ourselves it was having fun with the kids in the spirit of Christmas, we really knew that it was because we couldn't have forced them to focus on anything else at the time.

But the kids really were great, and seeing the kids sing "Frosty the Snowman" and "Jingle Bells" was pretty fantastic when you take into account that these are 6 and 7 year olds singing in their second language. It really is amazing to see the kids develop and grow and actually gain skills thanks to the work that I've done with them. Extremely rewarding.

So anyway, along comes December 22nd (I was leaving on the 23rd to fly to the USA) and I realized I still hadn't taken any pictures of the Christmas lights in Madrid. So I braved the cold and the rain and the massive last-minute shopping crowds just to get a few shots of the beauty of the city at Navidad.

Here is a shot of the massive tree in Plaza del Sol, right in the center of the city. And when I say massive, I mean several stories tall. Pretty incredible.

And what would Christmas in Spain be without the Three Wise Men? Kids here don't write letters to Santa, but to the Reyes Magos (Three Wise Men) and parents take their kids to sit on their laps for pictures. Really strange for a foreigner like me who was raised in a Santa culture, but definitely cool.

And here we have the Plaza de Callao, not too far from Sol, with yet another massive tree and even a fake ice skating rink. Which is interesting, because instead of ice there was a plastic covering. Not sure how it worked, but hey, the kids loved it.

Here is Cortylandia, a favorite of all the little Spanish niños. El Corte Inglés is a famous store in Spain where you can buy absolutely anything you need. Every year they make this massive display for the kids and parents bring their kids to the store just to see the show. It may not look like it in the picture, but the stage and statues are several stories tall.

And one last shot of the Christmas lights over Calle Mayor. These are my favorite lights in the entire city because they stretch the entire length of the street. Really beautiful.

So after my stint walking around and enjoying the lights, I then realized that it was nearing midnight and I was leaving the next morning.....and still hadn't packed. Typical Jordan style. And basically that meant that I got home with a suitcase full of completely random stuff, most of which I ended up leaving at home.

But I was extremely lucky to make it home with no delays and no problems, which is very rare for me. I almost never make it home without delays and cancellations, so I'll just chalk it up to a Christmas blessing that I made it home on time as planned.

Now, one of the things I always look forward to upon arriving in the good old USofA is having my Mom there to greet me at the gate. Because it's always a guaranteed crying-fest and it warms my heart. haha But I was really looking forward to getting home and seeing everyone, because unlike many people out there, I'm lucky enough to have an awesome family who I love spending time with. As crazy and weird as we all are, it's always guaranteed fun when we get together.

Since I didn't get into Dallas until after 9 at night, that meant I didn't get home until after midnight. Which meant as soon as I got home, I went straight to bed to sleep off the nearly 24 hours of travel that I had just finished. But the next day, the festivities began.

Christmas Eve is when my family usually exchanges presents, so as soon as I woke up on the 24th, this little guy pictured above was waiting for me to help tear into some gifts. My nephew Colt it my little sidekick every time I go home and it amazes me how much he has grown over my time in Spain. When I first came to Spain in August of 2009, he was so small and still very much in the toddler phase. Now I can carry on a full conversation with the kid and it's always a guaranteed laugh. And teaching 1st and 2nd graders have left me equipped with just the right conversation topics to really fit right in with him.

Of course my Mom is a proud Nonni to the little kids. And she is always ready and prepared to pose for a photo. So here she is with my nephew and Mickey in the background.

And here we have my other nephew, Cade, who is around 9 months old with my Dad and my grandma in the corner. This is another kid that I'm shocked and amazed at how big he is. When I left just this summer he was still tiny and in that boring-but-cute phase. Now he's so expressive and developing his personality. I can only imagine what he'll be like when I see him in the summer.

And here I am jamming out with my brother and sister-in-law. The nightlife in Oklahoma might not be quite the same as the nightlife in Madrid, but it's still a good time.

And one last picture of Colt jamming out on the drums.

So, not to get too serious or sappy on here, let's just suffice to say that I had a fantastic time at home. And it went by WAY too fast. But as always, it just showed me that, although it always hard to leave, I always have a great place to go home to.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Update #2 - The French Road Trip

Whoa, two posts, two days in a row? Is the sky falling?

I know, it's crazy. But BELIEVE IT. Cause this is happening.

So now it's time to give a little update on what happened after Thanksgiving. We'll title it "The French Road Trip," just for kicks.

On the very first weekend of December, all of us working at schools in Madrid struck the jackpot and were rewarded with a 5 day weekend. Don't ask me why...I just chalked it up to one of the many random Spanish holidays and didn't ask any more questions. So a few friends and I decided to seize the opportunity once again and rented a car that comfortably seated 4 people and then the 5 of us loaded up and left Madrid driving due North.

Our plan? To have no plan. We were going to wing it. No hostal reservations. No strict map routes. Just go into northern Spain/southern France and go wherever the wind directed us. While this sounded good in theory, there were a few of us in the car who are...let's just say "type A personalities" that weren't so okay with that. But that's neither here nor there.

So the first night, we decided in the car that we should just go as far as possible and work our way back. So we thought about maybe going to Marseille on the southern French coast and driving back from there, stopping in cities along the way. However, the traffic leaving Madrid on a holiday weekend is HORRENDOUS, so we had been in the car a solid two hours and still hadn't really left the city. So we made a snap decision and decided to spend our first night in.......

Barcelona!

Not too bad for a backup plan, eh? I drove for most of the time that first day and now I can say I've driven in the two biggest cities in Spain. I'm kinda proud of that.

Once we all made it to Barcelona, we were pretty exhausted so we didn't end up doing much more than walking around, eating, and enjoying the Christmas lights. So here is our little group posing in front of one of said light displays: me, Lupe, Amanda, Lizzie, and Rachel. All very, very cool girls.

And yes, I was the only testosterone in the group. Made for an interesting trip.

So the next day we got up fairly early, left our hostal (which was an experience in itself) and went on in to France. Rachel had friends who were in France teaching English, pretty much exactly like we are doing here in Madrid, and we made plans to meet up with them in a little town called Nimes, which was a couple of hours past the Spain/France border.

Although it was a quaint little French town, the weather most definitely did not cooperate with us. The cold wasn't unbearable, but the rain made it kinda rough. As you can see with Lupe, Amanda, and Lizzie here, we stayed bundled up most of the time and kept the umbrellas ready.

Rachel hadn't seen her friends in a pretty long time, so she decided to spend the night with them while Lupe, Amanda, Lizzie and I went further into France.

So we continued on into the French Riviera area to a town called Aix-en-Provence. It was a beautiful little town with some really great Christmas markets and beautifully decorated for the holiday season, as you can see above. Another great little French town and much, much different from my experiences in Paris.

"Joyeux Noel" = "Merry Christmas" in French. We saw this all over Aix-en-Provence, so I had to snap a shot of it.

The next day, after taking a nice, long rest the night before, we went out and explored the town and it's Christmas markets. It was just as cool in the daytime as it was at night.

And even cooler, they had a park named after me! And all along I thought the French were so lame...who knew?

After milling around Aix for a good part of the day, we loaded up once again and left for Montpellier, back towards the Spanish coast. We were going to meet back up with Rachel and her friends there and check out yet another French city. While Aix was a great little town, Montpellier was a little bigger and, therefore, a little fancier to behold. Here is a shot of the main central plaza which also had a Christmas market going at the time. I was thoroughly impressed.

The French Christmas markets are full of all kinds of goodies, from chocolates to meats to handmade artisan crafts, but one of my favorite things that we found was hot spiced wine. It tasted a lot like Spanish sangria, but warmed up like coffee so it warmed you up from the inside. Which was perfect for the cold French weather. Here are the 5 of us reunited enjoying a "vin chaude," or hot wine in French.

That night we originally had planned to get back into Spain, spend the night, and then wake up early to continue on to Madrid the next day. However, after a dinner of crepes, we decided to save some money on a hostal and just drive straight through the night to get back to Madrid early the next morning.

Once again...sounded great in theory....not so great in practice. I drove for several hours until we got back to Barcelona, but at that point I was completely spent. And let me tell you, between Montpellier, France and Barcelona, Spain, there's a whole lot of nothing. Especially at night when you don't get any of the great mountain views. So I was dead at the wheel and we still had about 6 to 7 hours to go. So I let the girls take over to get us home and crashed in the back for a good portion of the time.

We got back to Madrid around 6 in the morning, went home and slept off the tiredness from all the driving, and prepared to go back to work the next day, although it was about the last thing that any of us wanted to do.

But, just like all the other trips I take here, this one was amazing. Such good company and such amazing sights to see. I constantly feel so incredibly lucky. It really was a great time and it easily rivals most other road trips I've taken in my lifetime.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Update #1 - Euro Thanksgiving

Even though Thanksgiving was a couple of months ago now, it ended up being so incredible that I felt it was necessary to give it the credit it deserves.

Plus, in sticking with my newfound desire to update this thing more often, I need to go back and talk a little about things that went down between my last post and now. And this is my feeble attempt at getting all the important things down.

So anyway, going into this Thanksgiving, I was a little skeptical because last year was so amazing. As my first time to ever be away from home for Thanksgiving (or any major holiday, for that matter), last year proved to be a pretty awesome substitute for the family Turkey Day.

(For those of you who don't remember or just weren't aware, last year I went to Valencia to have Thanksgiving with some Spanish friends who had studied abroad at OU and some Masters friends. It was enjoyable, to say the least.)

So yeah. Thanksgiving 2009 left some big shoes to fill.

However, I somehow lucked my way into being invited to 3 separate Thanksgiving dinners of the holiday weekend, so if one dinner couldn't do the job, then surely three of them could, right?

So here are some stories and background info of the 3 Thanksgivings of 2010:

Thanksgiving #1 - Thursday, November 25th, 2010

My good friend Lupe, who I met last year in the program, currently lives with two other American girls named Lizzie and Gaby. All of us naturally wanted to have a dinner on the actual day of Thanksgiving, and Lizzie wanted to show her British boyfriend a traditional American celebration, so we set to planning a small gathering.

Luckily, the girls volunteered to do all the cooking, so my only job was showing up and eating. Which I was more than happy to take care of.

Here is a group shot of me, Lupe, Amanda (another Masters friend), and Lizzie in the girls' kitchen. The great thing about this picture is that it makes it look like I might actually be doing something to help rather than just taking up space. But we all know that the food prep in the kitchen is half the fun, right?

As a smaller gathering, we didn't make the massive amounts of food normally associated with a Thanksgiving dinner, but we still had quite the spread. Turkey, dressing, green bean casserole, homemade rolls, etc. Not too bad.

And a little close up shot of the turkey. (or maybe it was a chicken? I feel like my details are starting to get a little foggy.)

Thanksgiving #2 - Friday, November 26th, 2010

So then on to the next night. And despite still having some serious stomach pains from eating too much from the night before, I went in for round 2. As the Spaniards say, "hay que aprovechar la oportunidad!" ("you've got to seize the opportunity!")

So this time, my friends Jocey, Joy and Rachel (more good friends from last year) were having a gathering at their apartment in Lavapiés, a really hip part of Madrid that's great for going and getting tapas or for stuffing your face with obscene amounts of food at a friend's apartment.

Except there was a big difference between this Thanksgiving dinner and the one the night before. This time around the girls had invited like 30 people to their apartment with the instructions that everyone had to bring something, whether it be food, drinks, utensils, etc. So basically, imagine your typical amount of food at a Thanksgiving dinner and multiply it by about 100.

This one was also cool because it was kind of like eating Thanksgiving dinner at the United Nations. Seriously, a ton of different countries were represented that night and everyone was shocked to see that, yes, Americans actually do celebrate Thanksgiving by eating ourselves silly.

Here I am with the lovely hostesses: me, Joy, Lupe (from the night before), Rachel, and Jocey. These girls are awesome and I am definitely thankful for them, and not just because they cook for me.

Here is a shot of the turkey and ham that was cooked to perfection by Jocey. I really wish the pictures did it more justice because it was delicious and it looked like they had robbed a farm by how much food there was.

A shot of some of the homemade casseroles and things that the girls made/people brought. Once again, the picture doesn't really do it full justice because there were several tables lined with dishes like this.

And, as you can see, a party full of expats living in Madrid is never complete without a ton of wine. Which coincidentally was also my contribution to the dinner.

Don't judge.

Thanksgiving #3 - Saturday, November 27th, 2010

Last, but definitely not least, my good friend Robin (yet another of my friends from my Masters) has a Spanish boyfriend and, as this is her 3rd year here, a ton of Spanish friends. So she wanted to throw a big T-giving dinner for the Spaniards and invited several of her American friends as well. I was one of the lucky ones on the guest list.

This one was a little bigger than dinner #1 and smaller than dinner #2, but basically all you need to know about Robin is that she is seriously like Martha Stewart. The Thanksgiving dinner had every single traditional dish that belongs on the table: the turkey, the stuffing, the rolls, the green bean casserole, the broccoli casserole, the cranberry sauce, the pumpkin pie, etc.

And here's the thing: it was all homemade.

That's right. Every. Single. Thing. Made by Robin's hand. Even the cranberry sauce! Now I don't know about all of you out there, but my family's cranberry sauce always had the little rings around if from where we pulled it out of the can. So I was kind of blown away.

If that doesn't impress the hell out of you, I really don't know what will.

Here's a shot of the the master chef with her finished product.

And a shot of the table before we all dug in. Unfortunately no group pictures with this dinner, but you get the idea. And the night was filled with great conversation and good times.

As you can imagine, Sunday was basically a time to pop a lot of Tums and try and fight through the indigestion pains.

So overall it was quite a fantastic Thanksgiving, despite being so far away from home. Even though I didn't have my family close by, I had all of my Spain family right here with me. And despite the amazingness of all of that great food, all of my friends that I've made over here in Spain made it a Thanksgiving that I will truly never forget.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

A New Year and A New Direction

My my my. I once again have failed miserably at keeping this old blog of mine updated. Not that I did a whole lot in the month of December, but for the sake of posterity, I'll make some time this week to go back and write about all that happened during the last month or so of 2010.

Of course, there was Thanksgiving. 3 of them, to be exact. And a road trip to northern Spain/southern France. And all of the Christmas festivities/traveling home for the break. So I think all of that merits some attention, don't you?

But as for now, I just want to jot down a few of my recent revelations and goals that will (hopefully) take place over the course of 2011. Some of this stuff is still relatively new in my mind, so forgive me if it seems like I'm rambling because I'm still working it all out for myself.

1. While at home over Christmas break, I was given the very strong conviction that this will be my last year in Spain and that it is time for me to hang up the proverbial dancing shoes and start that next phase of life. I'm actually pretty comfortable with the decision. However, that decision itself led to several other goals being put in place, such as.....
2. Getting my resumé redone and ready for job applications. This is more of an immediate goal than a long-term one, but it's currently at #1 on the list of things to do. I would really like to nail a job down by the summer, and I think it's doable. But one thing I would LOVE to know: why oh why does resumé-making have to be so damn difficult?
3. Traveling will be a priority for me over the next few months. Seeing as how these are my last months in Europe, I know I need to take advantage of the cheap and easy travel opportunities available to me here. When will I ever be able to take a weekend trip to Paris or Rome or Amsterdam or Morroco (and on and on and on) ever again?
4. I know I say this over and over again, but I really want to give some attention to my poor old blog. Poor thing is going to start having abandonment issues before long.

I know there's more rolling around this great big head of mine, but I'm exhausted right now and it's all I have the patience to write. Guess I'm not doing too hot on #4 just yet.

It's a work in progress.

But anyway, the point is that I feel like 2010 was a year of uncertainty as I really had no idea where I was going in life. But I have a strong feeling that 2011 is going to be a big year.